You Ask Me How I'm Doing

You ask me how I'm doing, I answer with "I'm fine."

What I'd really like to say though, is I think I've lost my mind.

Won't you take a moment to see my hurt and pain?

To know my life's been shattered and will never be the same.

I've lost someone I love so much, it's just too hard to bare.

Is there someone to understand me?

Someone to say they care?

Will you take some time and cry with me?

Will you share in my great sorrow?

Can you somehow help me find a way that I can face tomorrow?

Do you know that when my B.J. died a part of me died too?

A piece of me is missing, and I don't know what to do.

I don't expect to hear you say, "I know just how you feel."

Just tell me that you miss him too, and pray our hearts will heal.

Can you tell me that you're sorry, and what he meant to you?

Somehow this burden may be lightened, if the pain is borne by two.

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To my Buddy...
 
The days turned to months
The months have turned to years.
Even with all the distance
There's still so many tears.
 
I still can't believe
The day really came.
That I had to let you go
Life will never be the same.
 
There's many wonderful memories
And many sad ones too.
My heart will smile and then it breaks
With just a thought of you.
 
I never knew it could hurt this much
The pain...it rips my heart.
I just miss you more and more
The longer we're apart.
 
How I long for that day
When I join you up above.
And once again I hold you close
And give you all my love.
 
Keep watching for me Buddy Boy
Cause I'll be there when I can.
There must be more I have to do
To complete our Master's Plan.
 

Mama will always love you B.J.

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Still So Hard To Believe...

I still find it so hard to believe

That you really went away.

How could it have happened?

Why weren't you allowed to stay?

Why did it have to be your time

To tell us all goodbye?

Why did your little body stop?

Why did you have to die?

Oh B.J. didn't the Lord know

What it would do to me?

I find it so hard to accept,

The good I just can't see.

It's been so long since I've seen your face

And held you close to my heart.

The days have turned to years now,

That we've had to be apart.

I miss you more with each passing day

There's just no words to explain.

How can your Mama continue on

Living with all this pain?

The Lord has got to help me

It hurts so very much.

Please tell Him that I need Him now

I need to feel His touch.