You Ask Me How I'm Doing
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You ask me how I'm doing,
I answer with "I'm fine."
What I'd really like to say though,
Is I think I've lost my mind.
Won't you take a moment
To see my hurt and pain?
To know my life's been shattered
And will never be the same.
I've lost someone I love so much,
It's just too hard to bare.
Is there someone to understand me?
Someone to say they care?
Will you take some time and cry with me?
Will you share in my great sorrow?
Can you somehow help me find a way
That I can face tomorrow?
Do you know that when my B.J. died
A part of me died too?
A piece of me is missing,
And I don't know what to do.
I don't expect to hear you say,
"I know just how you feel."
Just tell me that you miss him too,
And pray our hearts will heal.
Can you tell me that you're sorry,
And what he meant to you?
Somehow this burden may be lightened,
If the pain is borne by two.
© Cindy Outlaw
To my Buddy...
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The days turned to months
The months have turned to years.
Even with all the distance
There's still so many tears.
I still can't believe
The day really came.
That I had to let you go
Life will never be the same.
There's many wonderful memories
And many sad ones too.
My heart will smile and then it breaks
With just a thought of you.
I never knew it could hurt this much
The pain...it rips my heart.
I just miss you more and more
The longer we're apart.
How I long for that day
When I join you up above.
And once again I hold you close
And give you all my love.
Keep watching for me Buddy Boy
Cause I'll be there when I can.
There must be more I have to do
To complete our Master's Plan.
© Cindy Outlaw
Mama will always love you B.J.
Still So Hard To Believe...
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I still find it so hard to believe
That you really went away.
How could it have happened?
Why weren't you allowed to stay?
Why did it have to be your time
To tell us all goodbye?
Why did your little body stop?
Why did you have to die?
Oh B.J. didn't the Lord know
What it would do to me?
I find it so hard to accept,
The good I just can't see.
It's been so long since I've seen your face
And held you close to my heart.
The days have turned to years now,
That we've had to be apart.
I miss you more with each passing day
There's just no words to explain.
How can your Mama continue on
Living with all this pain?
The Lord has got to help me
It hurts so very much.
Please tell Him that I need Him now
I need to feel His touch.
© Cindy Outlaw
"Together We Can Make It"
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We've been called to begin a journey
One we didn't want to take.
A journey filled with sorrow
Many tears and much heartache.
The road is long and winding
With hills that we must climb.
It's a sad and lonely road we're on
The hardest of all time.
But then we look around us
And we find we're not alone.
There are friends that reach out for us
And great love and strength we're shown.
The caring hearts, the gentle words
The compassion that we find.
Helps to soothe our broken hearts
And restore some peace of mind.
The friends we've found at Grief Share
Have helped us heal a bit.
Because we've found that though it's hard
Together We Can Make It!
© Cindy Outlaw
Written for Grief Share
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Simply Pray For Me
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You think I could do better,
Than I am doing now.
You think if I'd only listen,
You could tell me How.
Why do you pass judgment...
On the outward things you see?
Why not lift me up instead,
And simply pray for me?
You see these shoes that I walk in...
I never chose them to wear.
And at times I do grow weary,
Under this burden I must bare.
So while you feel you hold the answers,
And you tell me how it should be.
Why not call out my name to Jesus,
And simply pray for me?
It's not a lack of Faith I have.
And it's not a lack of Trust.
For I know who my Jesus is.
And to lean on Him is a must.
But still I'm only human.
And this pain is real you see.
So I'm asking you once again my friend.
If you'll simply pray for me?
© Cindy Outlaw
Speak Softly
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Speak softly the words I long to hear
Bring healing to the pain.
Make me smile and laugh once more
And feel life is worth living again.
Come softly when I close my eyes
Let me feel you oh so near.
Whisper the words I love you Ma
The words I need to hear.
It's been so long since I held you close
My arms are empty now.
To hug you even one more time
If only I knew how...
Dreams of what should have been
Drift in and out so sweet.
My heart holds on to the hope
That one day soon again we'll meet.
I can't be certain of what I would do
When again my eyes see you.
But I think I'd hold you oh so tight
Knowing that day my dream came true.
© Cindy Outlaw
"LOVE"
Tell someone that you love them,
Show them that you care.
Let them know they're in your heart,
And if they need you you'll be there.
... Offer someone a simple smile,
For it may be their hope is lost.
And just a little kindness shown,
Isn't of great cost.
Everywhere we look today,
We see sorrow tears and pain.
But just a little love that's shown,
Can restore hope within again.
© Cindy Outlaw
Whose life can you make a difference in today? You might be surprised just how "BIG" something "little" can be.
