Bobby Jack Outlaw II

Wishing you a Happy Mother's Day filled with gentle memories of your precious boys!

Love, Emelita~Forever Noah's Mommy

Buddy today is 5 years and 5 months since you've been gone. I miss you so much! The tears have fallen all morning without me meaning to let them...they just keep coming. I went out to the cemetary and had a good cry but it made no difference. You know I told you one time that I would cry enough for both of us. Well, I still do. I can't help it Buddy, I just miss you more every day. It's still just not right that you're not here. It wasn't suspose to be this way.

What a hard month this is B.J. The anniversary of your Kidney Transplant is Wed. the 6th. Mother's Day is Sunday the 10th. The anniversary of you having those horrible seizures and having to start dialysis is the 12th. And your birthday is the 17th. Then here comes the end of the month when it will be your Graduation anniversary on May 31st. Buddy young people are suppose to have their whole life ahead of them when they graduate from high School. Little did we know that your whole life after graduation would only be a year and a half. It's just not right. Please ask Jesus to help me make it Buddy because it's still so hard.

Love you forever, Mama

HAPPY EASTER

B.J, WAYNE & BUCK

AND ALL YOUR LOVING FAMILY.

GOD BLESS

Last week little Jacob Beaty's Mom Tammy asked me for my address...she wanted to send Johnathan something. I thought it was so sweet of her. She sent him a little bell called Ben's Bell in remembrance of a little boy name Ben. I'm including his story here...

http://www.bensbells.org/About.html

Johnathan loves the bell and I told him when he needs to talk to you he can ring the bell and I think you will be listening. What makes it so special is he told me that he can tell you to ask Jesus to let his doctor appointment turn out good. I'm so thankful that through a little boy name Ben...your little brother has found some comfort over the scary thing he has to face. Isn't the Lord good?

I love you Buddy...

Love, Mama

3/18/09

  BJ,

Your smile brought joy 2 r hearts. It is with love we remember u always n forever, the pain we feel at your passing pales with the joy brought to our lives. God Bless...Little Ones-Wayne & Buck, the promise of your lives lingers amid the sorrow. Hugs to you Cindy

Cynthia

3/18/09

3/6/09

Sending love and hugs to you and your precious family BJ, Wayne & Buck.   {{{Cindy}}}

3/6/09

Good night my "Butter", I love you so much.

Dad's having to work late tonight, ask Jesus to

watch over him and bring him home soon.

Love, Mama "Syrup"

Good night my bitty boys Wayne and Buck.

I love you both bunches and bunches.

Love, Mama

3/7/09

Three precious angels lighting up heaven with their love

and wonder as they praise and honor the Lord.

B.J., Buck and Wayne, you precious guys are loved so much.

I can't wait to have the honor of meeting you one day!

((Cindy))

3/8/09

Three precious angels lighting up heaven with their love

and wonder as they praise and honor the Lord.

B.J., Buck and Wayne, you precious guys are loved so much.

I can't wait to have the honor of meeting you one day!

((Cindy))

3/9/09

My friends left messages for you at Grief Share during the time we couldn't visit your MO site. I'm bringing them here for you. How loved and missed you are.

Love, Mama
3/4/09

Oh B.J. I don't know what's happened. When Jeff's Dad took his life it caused my world to fall apart again. You know Jeff is such a wonderful and very special friend of ours. My heart is absolutely breaking for him. And it's caused so many emotions to resurface over you. I know you didn't die the same way but you still died. Life is so unfair Buddy and Mama is so angry again. Why? I keep asking why it has to be this way and I don't get answers. It's left me so confussed and hurting so much. I don't know what to do. I keep asking Jesus to help and I know He is but I can't feel it and I need to feel the comfort. I need Him as much now as I ever have. Please ask Him to help me. I don't know how much more my heart can take. It feels as though it will just stop. If it weren't for the kids I wouldn't care. I love you and miss you so much B.J.

Love, Mama

B.J. I had an awful dream about you last night. In my dream you were around 14 years old. I dreamed you were having seizures just like you did back then and was fighting us. It was just the way it happened all those years ago when you were 14 years old and had those horrible seizures. It seemed so real and it just made me cry...it broke my heart all over again to see you like that Buddy. I don't know why I still have to have those dreams B.J. Living it in real life back then was already too much. All I can say is I'm thankful you're not having to live with any of those things happening to you anymore. Oh but how I love and miss you!

Love, Mama