Happy Birthday Wayne and Buck, I love you and miss you both so much. It's hard to believe you would be 29 years old now. Sure wish you were here.Love, Mama
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| Mama | Happy Birthday Boys...1/26/2015 | January 26, 2015 |
Happy Birthday Wayne and Buck, I love you and miss you both so much. It's hard to believe you would be 29 years old now. Sure wish you were here.Love, Mama
| Mama | It's happened...1/16/2015 | January 16, 2015 |
Daddy is gone...it's just me and Johnathan now.
| Mama | Happy New Year 1/1/2015 | January 1, 2015 |
Happy New Year boys. I love you and I so wish you were here.Love, Mama
| Mama | Merry Christmas Boys 12/24/2014 | December 24, 2014 |
Merry Christmas boys. Oh how I wish you were here.
Love, Mama
Love, Mama
| Mama | Wave of Lights 12/14/2014 | December 14, 2014 |
Today we light candles for y'all...be with us. Love, Mama
| Mama | Your 11th Angel Day 12/1/2014 | December 1, 2014 |
Remembering you B.J. I love you and miss you more than words can say.
Bobby Jack Outlaw II
May 17, 1984 - December 1, 2003
You ask me how I'm doing,
I answer with "I'm fine."
What I'd really like to say though,
Is I think I've lost my mind.
Won't you take a moment
To see my hurt and pain?
To know my life's been shattered
And will never be the same.
I've lost someone I love so much,
It's just too hard to bare.
Is there someone to understand me?
Someone to say they care?
Will you take some time and cry with me?
Will you share in my great sorrow?
Can you somehow help me find a way
That I can face tomorrow?
Do you know that when my B.J. died
A part of me died too?
A piece of me is missing,
And I don't know what to do.
I don't expect to hear you say,
"I know just how you feel."
Just tell me that you miss him too,
And pray our hearts will heal.
Can you tell me that you're sorry,
And what he meant to you?
Somehow this burden may be lightened,
If the pain is borne by two.
© Cindy Outlaw
| Mama | Happy Thanksgiving 11/27/2014 | November 27, 2014 |
Happy Thanksgiving boys, I love you so much and oh how I wish you were here.Love, Mama
| Cindy Outlaw | Happy 13th Birthday Johnathan 11/22/2014 | November 22, 2014 |
Happy birthday Scooty! We love you bunches.Love, B.J., Wayne and Buck
| Cindy Outlaw | Happy 13th Birthday Johnathan 11/22/2014 | November 22, 2014 |
It's hard to believe your little brother is 13 today. Time has gone so fast. I sure wish you were here to help him celebrate. Let him feel you close ok?Love, Mama
| Mama | Angel Tree Ornaments 11/18/2014 | November 18, 2014 |
We hung your ornament tonight. Oh how I wish it weren't like this. Love, Mama
| Mama | Lala's birthday 11/12/2014 | November 12, 2014 |
Today is Lala's birthday, I hope you boys let her feel you near.
| Mama | Sarah turned 21 today. 9/21/2014 | September 21, 2014 |
It's so hard to believe your little sister turned 21 years old today. Where has time gone. Oh how I wish you could have been here.Love, Mama
| Mama | I faced one of my greatest fears today. 9/3/2014 | September 3, 2014 |
B.J. Brother Perry had open heart surgery today at Hillcrest Baptist Hospital in Waco where you died. I was so scared to go back there. But as Dooley and I pulled up I whispered a prayer as tears filled my eyes and Jesus helped me. Dooley offered to drop me off at the door so I wouldn't have to walk so far but I told him I wanted to walk with him. I didn't want him to know it's because I was afraid of walking through those doors alone. But Jesus was so good to me. With the Lord's help and you pulling for me and a great friend by my side I handled it with peace in my heart and I'm so thankful.
| Mama | Johnathan going into 7th Grade 8/25/2014 | August 25, 2014 |
Your 'lil brother started 7th grade today. Oh how I wish you were here. Love, Mama
| Mama | My new laptop. 7/20/2014 | July 20, 2014 |
I got a new laptop today
| Mama | Happy 4th of July boys 7/4/2014 | July 5, 2014 |
Oh how I wish you were here. Nothing is ever the same without you even all these years later. 
| Mama | Love Notes to Heaven | May 20, 2014 |
I love you boys...♥
| Mama | Happy 30th Birthday B.J. 5/17/2014 | May 17, 2014 |
Why is it impossible to cry enough tears to stop the pain? Why does it keep on hurting? How long is long enough? Too many questions and no answers. I'm sorry but I'm angry tonight. If that makes me bad...well right now I just don't care. Life is so stinking unfair. I don't care what anyone says or thinks B.J. you should have still been here. You should have got to live a long life. You should have gotten to marry and have children. You should have gotten to turn 30 today but instead you're forever 19 years old. You should have been here so we could celebrate your special day but instead we get to go clean your grave. What a gift! That is messed up!!!!!! You should be here to eat the chocolate pudding pie I made you for your birthday but you're NOT. Yet it doesn't do a bit of good to cry or be angry cause guess what? YOU'RE STILL NOT HERE AND YOU AREN'T GOING TO BE. I love you and miss you so much Butter. Happy birthday in Heaven.
Love, Mama
Love, Mama
| Mama | Memorials for sweet Wayne and Buck 5/15/2014 | May 17, 2014 |
Sweet Wayne and Buck, I have a friend name Lynda. I met her at Aubrey's Playhouse this past year (her husband Joe plays there all the time) but I didn't really start getting to know her until recently on facebook. She told me the other day that she would like to set up memorial sites for you on the Find A Grave web site and asked if it would be alright with me. Of course I told her yes. After she set them up she sent me the links I'll add them so you can see. Not only has this blessed me beyond what my words can express but something she said blessed me so very much. Her words..."I felt such a responsibility to make them tender and sweet, whereas the normal memorials are more factual. I just wanted to help you keep their memory alive forever, and this is a permanent record so everyone researching the family will know these two little angels blessed your life for a little while." Aww now I'm crying again. I've waited for 28 years for you to be acknowledged and what Lynda has done has opened the door for that to happen. My heart is so blessed and I could never thank her enough.I love you boys and I miss you so much.
Love, Mama
Wayne
http://www.findagrave.com/cgi-bin/fg.cgi?page=gr&GRid=129672670
Buck
http://www.findagrave.com/cgi-bin/fg.cgi?page=gr&GRid=129672988
| Mama | Mother's Day 5/11/2014 | May 11, 2014 |
Another Mother's Day has come and gone...I miss you so much.
Love, Mama
Love, Mama
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