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| Mama | Johnathan started Middle School today. 8/26/2013 | September 2, 2013 |
So hard to believe...sure wish you were here.
| Mama | Your 'lil nephew Ian is 4 years old...7/31/2013 | August 27, 2013 |
Your 'lil nephew Ian is 4 years old now...so hard to believe.
| johnathan | work | July 5, 2013 |
I rember when i was a baby when my brother B.J. would get home from work he would always put his cap on me and i would be so happy
| Mama | Johnathan's 5th Grade Promotion | May 30, 2013 |
Johnathan's 5th Grade Promotion
| Mama | Elijah Bug's Award | May 30, 2013 |
Elijah Bug's Award
| Mama | Love Notes to Heaven...♥ 5/21/2013 | May 21, 2013 |
Wayne and Buck I hope you know I love you both so much and not a day goes by that I don't miss you and long to see you. It's been so long...but I'm getting closer so don't give up on Mama. Hug your brother for me and I'll see you all as soon as I can.Love forever, Mama
| Mama | Love Notes to Heaven...♥ 5/21/2013 | May 21, 2013 |
B.J. what can Mama say that I haven't already said a million times? I love you and miss you so much. How I wish you were still here with me even though I would never try and make you come back...I just miss you so much. Keep watching for me Buddy because I'll be there as soon as I can. Hug your little brothers for me and tell them I love them. You live on in my heart and my memories and that will never change. Love forever, Mama
| Mama | Happy birthday B.J. | May 17, 2013 |
Happy birthday B.J., I love you so much. Love, Mama
| B.J., Wayne and Buck | Happy Mother's Day | May 12, 2013 |
Happy Mother's Day Mama, we love you. Love, B.J., Wayne and Buck
| Mama | May 8th | May 8, 2013 |
In loving memory of my sweet Wayne and Buck on what should have been their birthday had I carried them full term...Sweet boys I carried you under my heart for just under 6 months but Mama will carry you in my heart a lifetime. ♥
| Mama | 10 years ago...May 5th 2003 | May 5, 2013 |
10 years ago on May 5th you had your kidney transplant. You were always such a strong young man and never complained. How I wish things could have turned out different. How I wish it had given you the long life we all hoped and prayed for instead of just less than 7 months. But the freedom it gave you for that short time was wonderful and you made the most of it. Never in my wildest dreams did I think you wouldn't still be here 10 years later. I miss you Buddy and even though my heart is broken I am thankful you're healthy now. No more surgeries...no more medicine...no more pain. You said Heaven would be worth it and I know you were right. Enjoy it all B.J. because no one deserves it more than you. You were always telling me to go home and rest but I always told you my place was with you and I meant it. No matter how tired I would get you were worth it. I'm glad you're not sick anymore but Buddy I miss you so much. Mama would have taken care of you forever B.J. I would have...♥
Love, Mama
| Mama | Back to Waco... | April 8, 2013 |
B.J. you know brother Perry is finally having his surgery tomorrow and you know Mama needs to be there. But you also know that means I have to go back to Waco and that's the hard part because that's where we lost you. Please ask Jesus to give me the courage I need to do this. Already the tears are falling...but I need to go so I am going to. Sometimes I wish I had the faith you did...Mama's trying. Thank you Buddy I love you.♥
| Mama | Our trip to San Antonio | April 8, 2013 |
Well Buddy we made the trip to San Antonio again. It was so different being just me, Dad and Johnathan.
| Cindy Outlaw | Candle at church for Easter 2013 | March 31, 2013 |
I had a candle burning at church for y'all today. Oh how I wish you could have been here.Love, Mama
| Mama | Easter 2013 | March 31, 2013 |
Happy Easter boys, I love y'all and miss you so much.Love, Mama
| Mama | Happy St Patrick's Day! | March 17, 2013 |
Happy St Patrick's Day boys! I love you so much. I hope you remembered to wear a bit of green today so you didn't get pinched.Love, Mama
| Mama | Your Uncle John | March 8, 2013 |
Look boys I finally got a picture of your Uncle John. I know you already met him but I wanted to share it here anyway. I asked your Aunt Linda if she had one she could share and she did. It's just a picture of a picture but I love it. This is his senior picture. He died in a car accident the summer after he graduated. I'm so happy to finally have a picture of him yet at the same time it makes me cry. Wow talk about the memories that come in like a flood. I was only 8 years old when he died and he was only 19 but I've never forgotten and never will. Happy Birthday John...I know all of Heaven is celebrating your special day with you.♥
John Frank Karnes
1953 ~ 1972
| Mama | Heaven is worth it...3/6/13 | March 6, 2013 |
Buddy I shared this with my friends today. I wanted to bring it here and share with you. I know you understand.
Love, Mama
Love, Mama
I shared this somewhere else but I really wanted to share it here as well. I'm changing it up a bit because I won't name who I was talking to or why but the reality of it really hit me so I want to share it...
B.J. struggled with his sickness for 18 of his 19 years. I've shared much of what he went through but still no one has any idea just what it was like for him because I can't find the words t...o tell what it was really like. He told me just a few months before the Lord called him home that if all that he went through was what it took for him to make heaven someday then yes it was worth it. He didn't have to give it any thought. It breaks my heart because I hated for him to be sick and go through all he went through...you see as his Mama I do know because I was there every step of the way with him...but even now I'm learning from my son. I just realized that I'm finally at a place that I too can say if losing my boys and living with gut wrenching pain for years is what it takes for me to make it to heaven...then yes it is worth it. It's not what I would have chosen and I miss them with every beat of my heart and every breath I take...but I long to make heaven my home. The Lord knows and I just realized that truely is enough even if right now I'm crying so hard at the reality of it all. I honestly never believed I would see it this way.
B.J. struggled with his sickness for 18 of his 19 years. I've shared much of what he went through but still no one has any idea just what it was like for him because I can't find the words t...o tell what it was really like. He told me just a few months before the Lord called him home that if all that he went through was what it took for him to make heaven someday then yes it was worth it. He didn't have to give it any thought. It breaks my heart because I hated for him to be sick and go through all he went through...you see as his Mama I do know because I was there every step of the way with him...but even now I'm learning from my son. I just realized that I'm finally at a place that I too can say if losing my boys and living with gut wrenching pain for years is what it takes for me to make it to heaven...then yes it is worth it. It's not what I would have chosen and I miss them with every beat of my heart and every breath I take...but I long to make heaven my home. The Lord knows and I just realized that truely is enough even if right now I'm crying so hard at the reality of it all. I honestly never believed I would see it this way.
| Mama | Sharing a poem I wrote today. 3/5/13 | March 5, 2013 |
"LOVE"
Tell someone that you love them,
Show them that you care.
Let them know they're in your heart,
And if they need you you'll be there.
Offer someone a simple smile,
For it may be their hope is lost.
And just a little kindness shown,
Isn't of great cost.
Everywhere we look today,
We see sorrow tears and pain.
But just a little love that's shown,
Can restore hope within again.
Whose life can you make a difference in today? You might be surprised just how "BIG" something "little" can be.
| Mama | Happy Birthday Amanda 3/3/13 | March 3, 2013 |
B.J. can you believe Amanda is 30 now? And she still looks so much younger. I so wish you could have been here for her birthday. You would have made it perfect.Love, Mama
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