Buddy I posted a status on my fb wall on Feb. 6th. It was talking about me wanting my desire to sing to come back to me. I had said that laughter and singing were the two things I missed most (in myself) after losing you. I have already gotten my ability to laugh back but not the desire to sing.
So now for my thankful...The last few months a few of the ones I go to listen to play and sing on Thursday nights has asked me when I'm going to sing over there and I keep telling them I'm not because I lost my desire and have no song to sing. They sing a little bit of everything from Old Gospel to Country and a little bit of everything else thrown in between. Well I got up this morning with a song in my heart. It's an old Southern Gospel song I use to sing a lot called The Lighthouse. Words can't describe what that did and is doing inside of me. Yet at the same time I know he is telling me I need to sing it at the Thursday night singing I go to and it needs to be in the near future. That's the scary part. I have never sang in front of them and I'm terrified. lol I know I'll do it eventually because I know without a doubt he's telling me to trust him and step out in faith and do it and I know I have to face that fear. I am beyond excited yet so scared at the same time...but the happy excitement of what I'm feeling is WONDERFUL! :)
Isn't Jesus good?
Love, Mama
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| Mama | My Song...3/1/2013 | March 1, 2013 |
| Mama | Awesome News! 2/24/2013 | February 25, 2013 |
Hey Buddy I have to share some awesome news...
I heard from Michael tonight. He told me they (he and his wife) went to church tonight. He said it's Jesus Name and Spirit filled but I'm not sure if it's Jesus Name or not because it's Assembly of God...but still I thought it was awesome. Here's what he told me...
Hey Cindy, just thought I'd let you know we went to church here in Lampasas at Christ The Rock, we've been there before but today was different. It wasn't UPC but God moved in a very powerful way! God spoke through a church member and it felt it was directed right at me. Regardless what has happened in the past or what we were going through we are worthy to give him praise. It was a service were God moved so powerful there was no preaching just praying at the alter. The preacher said God wanted to meet us but we had to take the first step, so he said take the step to the alter and I said no inside, people were going and the preacher said there's still someone out there that needs to come my eyes started watering and I was still saying no, then I was ok God if you want me to go down show me it's me, then the preacher said you know who you are, your hands are sweating, and Cindy I was sweating all over so I went to the alter, and I haven't felt like that in a long time. I needed it.
| Mama | Happy Valentine's Day! 2/14/2013 | February 14, 2013 |
Happy Valentine's Day to the loves of my life! I love y'all!Love, Mama
| Mama | The HARLEM GLOBETROTTERS | January 29, 2013 |
We're going to see the HARLEM GLOBETROTTERS tonight in Brownwood. I'm so glad you got here in time through the "Melodies from Heaven" to go with us.Love you bunches, Mama
| Mama | Happy 27th birthday Wayne and Buck | January 26, 2013 |
Happy 27th birthday my sweet Wayne and Buck. Make sure Buddy helps you celebrate big ok. I love and miss you so much. Love, Mama
| B.J., Wayne and Buck | Happy Birthday Mama | January 19, 2013 |
Happy birthday Mama, we love you bunches!
Love, B.J., Wayne and Buck
Love, B.J., Wayne and Buck
| Mama | 2013 | January 1, 2013 |
There's no happy any more. 
| Mama | Merry Christmas | December 24, 2012 |
Merry Christmas boys, oh how I wish you were here.Love, Mama
| Mama | Johnathan was Joseph again... | December 24, 2012 |
Doesn't your lil brother make an awesome Joseph? His little friend Rayna is Mary.
| Mama | My Angel/Butterfly Pin | December 15, 2012 |
I went to the church ladies Christmas party tonight. One of the ladies couldn't be there but she sent little gifts to use as door prizes. I won one of them. I got this little angel. Not only is it an angel but it also looks like a brown butterfly and brown butterflies are one of my comforts from you B.J. It was the most perfect gift I could have recieved. The pictures doesn't really do it justice and doesn't quiet show the true colors but I wanted to share it anyway.Love, Mama
| Mama | Wave of Lights | December 9, 2012 |
Tonight is the "Wave of Lights". We'll have candles burning bright in loving memory of all of you. Love, Mama
| Mama | Johnathan | December 1, 2012 |
Your little brother walked with the Boy Scouts in the Christmas Parade of Lights. Aren't you so proud of him.
| Mama | Your Grave | December 1, 2012 |
Johnathan and I worked your grave today. I hope you liked it. I sure miss you B.J.Love, Mama
| Mama | Uncle Mack and Aunt Debra | December 1, 2012 |
Beautiful red rose giving in memory of you by your Uncle Mack and Aunt Debra.
| Mama | From Brother and Sister Mullins | December 1, 2012 |
Beautiful flowers given in memory of you by Brother and Sister Mullins.
| Mama | 9 Years | December 1, 2012 |
Completeness of a life is not measured in length only, it is measured in the deeds and commitments that give a life purpose. Your life held much purpose B.J. You may not have changed the world...but you sure changed the world for me.
Love, Mama
| Mama | Thanksgiving 2012 | November 22, 2012 |
Today we went to Brownwood to Amanda's house for our big dinner. We were about half way there and out of nowhere our windshield got sprinkled with rain drops. There wasn't even any clouds above us. Our first thought was ...
look...B.J.'s going with us. To us rain is "Melodies from Heaven" and we always feel like you are with us. It was such perfect timing. Right after that happened I got a notification on my cell phone that my sweet friend Carla Villar posted a picture on my wall on facebook so I pulled it up to see what it was. It was a picture of twins representing sweet Wayne and Buck. To me that was a sign from y'all that y'all too were with us. So even though the day was touched with sadness I was thankful that still you boys were allowed to show me you will always be with me.
Buddy Amanda always sets your picture out when we have our meals and I lite a candle to burn for you boys. This is a picture of it. I added the picture Carla posted on my wall. My heart was touched in such a special way.♥
Buddy Amanda always sets your picture out when we have our meals and I lite a candle to burn for you boys. This is a picture of it. I added the picture Carla posted on my wall. My heart was touched in such a special way.♥
| Mama | Happy 11th Birthday Johnathan | November 22, 2012 |
Happy Birthday Johnathan, we love you!
| Mama | Your Ornaments 11-20-2012 | November 20, 2012 |
We got your ornaments put on the tree at the mall. It's never easy but at least you will be remembered in this special way.Love, Mama
| B.J., Wayne and Buck | Happy 25th Birthday Kayla | November 12, 2012 |
Happy 25th birthday Lala, we love you!
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