| Mama |
Look Buddy, Johnathan finally grew into the clothes you bought him the summer before you left. I remember when you bought them I told you they were too big and he wouldn't be able to wear them until he was probably 6 years old. You just said well...he can grow into them and wear them then. He's so happy to know they came from you. Thank you Buddy, I love you!
Love, Mama
| Happy 26th Anniversary Mama & Daddy! |
Happy Anniversary to Dad and Mom!
| B.J., Wayne & Buck...Happy Birthday Dad! |
Happy Birthday Dad!!!!
We all love you so much!
Have a wonderful B-day Dad!! We all love you.
| Mama |
Buddy, on July 10th I spoke at Ladies Night Out at Church. I talked about having faith and walking through the valley. I'm putting my notes here but you know Mama...I said a lot more than what my notes say. 
Anyway I think it went alright. I ended with telling them that to be in the valley isn't such a bad place to be. There is beauty in the valley. It's where we grow and it's what it takes to make it to Heaven and I want to make it to Heaven someday.
Plain and simple Buddy, I spoke because I want your life and death to continue to make a difference and I know it is.
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One day, two frogs were enjoying the day in the barn when they accidentally fell into the farmer's bucket of cream, and they couldn't get out. The two frogs kept swimming around to keep from drowning, and every once in a while they would try to climb out, but this was becoming very tiring.
One frog kept saying, "This is useless, we should just give up." But the other frog just ignored the comment and kept swimming. Finally, the pessimistic frog gave up and drowned. The other frog was sad at the loss of his friend, but he wasn't going to give up. He kept swimming and swimming, and, finally, the cream turned into butter and the frog simply climbed out.
This story shows that even if we stumble and others try to pull us down, we got to keep on swimming because, eventually, the cream will turn into butter and we'll make it out of the pail.
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One of the worst things you can do as a Christian is to go around with this plastic mask on saying, 'I love God, and He's so good,' when your heart is breaking inside,"
We need to be honest. Though we can say, 'God is good,' with tears running down our cheeks, but He is good, and He will see you through, and He never wastes your sorrows. He, as only He can… will transform them into that which is good—that which brings gain to the kingdom and glory to His name.
Surrendering your burden to the Lord is a step of faith and an act of will. He’s more interested in the sincerity of your heart and not the words you pray. He recognizes a genuine desire to surrender to Him.
I know that in your heart if you say, Jesus, I believe in You, He hears it. He hears your heart, I think He pays a lot more attention to your heart than your words.
Everything God does is good. Believe this with your heart, and hold on to this truth for strength in hard times.
Lord God, I cannot pretend that everything is fine, that everything is good because it's not. But I want to be completely truthful when I say that You, God, are good.
God is honored when deep inside you turn to Him and cry out, Oh God, You are awesome. Your ways are beyond finding out. Lord, I don’tt understand, but I bow before You because You are an awesome God.
Hezekiah was a king who trusted God with wholehearted devotion both in good times and in bad. The Bible records that "there was no one like him among all the kings of Judah, either before him or after him" 2 Kings 18:5 Even in the midst of bitter tears, Hezekiah approached God with a reverent, worshipful heart, and God heard his prayer: Remember, O Lord, how I have walked before you faithfully and with wholehearted devotion and have done what is good in your eyes.' And Hezekiah wept bitterly. 2 Kings 20:3
But we also have got to realize that the Lord isn’t just a therapist that we only go running to to make it through a difficult time. He is Lord and Savior. Your greatest joy will come when you yield your whole life to Him.
Know that you have to leave it up to Him, and you have no control over some things to come against you.
When you honor Him as God, you are better able to accept the circumstances of life.
Jeremiah 10:19 says, Woe is me for my hurt! My wound is grievous: but I said, Truly this is a grief, and I must bear it.
1 Peter 5:6-7 says, Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.
In Matt. 6:11 it says, Give us this day our daily bread. Daily the Lord was providing me with what I needed but I still was looking for that pouring out of His grace and peace, and hoping I was going to have this overwhelming feeling of peace in my life, but it was not like that. It was just a day-by-day supplying of the bread that I needed for that day.
Psalm 9:10 says, Those who know your name will trust in you, for you, Lord, have never forsaken those who seek you.
God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes. Rev. 7:17
There hath not failed one word of all His good promise. 1 Kings 8:56
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Cracked Pot Inspirational Story
A water bearer in India had two large pots,
one hung on each end of a pole which he carried
across his neck. One of the pots had a crack
in it, and while the other pot was perfect and always
delivered a full portion of water at the end
of the long walk from the stream to the
master's house. The cracked pot arrived only half full.
For a full two years this went on daily, with the bearer delivering only one and a half pots full of water in his master's house.
Of course, the perfect pot was proud of its accomplishments, perfect to the end for which it was made.
But the poor cracked pot was ashamed of its own imperfection, and miserable that it was able to accomplish only half of what it had been made to do.
After two years of what it perceived to be a bitter failure, it
spoke to the water bearer one day by the stream.
"I am ashamed of myself, and I want to apologize to you."
Why?" asked the bearer.
"What are you ashamed of?"
"I have been able, for these past two years, to deliver only half my load because this crack in my side causes water to leak out all the way back to your master's house.
Because of my flaws, you have to do all of this work, and you don't get full value from your efforts," the pot said.
The water bearer felt sorry for the old cracked pot, and in his compassion he said, "As we return to the master's house, I want you to notice the beautiful flowers along the path."
Indeed, as they went up the hill, the old cracked pot took notice of the sun warming the beautiful wild flowers on the side of the path, and this cheered it some.
But at the end of the trail, it still felt bad because it had leaked out half its load, and so again it apologized to the bearer for its failure.
The bearer said to the pot, "Did you notice that there were flowers only on your side of your path, but not on the other pot's side?
That's because I have always known about your flaw, and I took advantage of it. I planted flower seeds on your side of the path, and every day while we walk back from the stream, you've watered them.
For two years I have been able to pick these beautiful flowers
to decorate my master's table. Without you being just the way you are, he would not have this beauty to grace his house."
Moral: Each of us has our own unique flaws. We're all cracked pots.
But it's the cracks and flaws we each have that make our lives together so very interesting and rewarding. You've just got to take each person for what they are, and look for the good in them. There is a lot of good out there.
There is a lot of good in us!
Blessed are the flexible, for they shall not be bent out of shape.
Remember to appreciate all the different people in your life!
Thank you to the cracked pots in my life.
You have made life more interesting and beautiful.
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After I was finished Sister Yancey called me into the Sanctuary and sang the most beautiful song that said just what I spoke about...it made Mama cry. When she was finished she told me that the Lord gave her the words as I was speaking. Isn't that special? Some day I want to get a copy from her and put it here for you.
I love you B.J. I always have and I always will!
Love, Mama
| Mama |
See-Tee gave this to me for Mother's Day last year. I just wanted to share it with you Buddy.
Love, Mama
My Mom
With a throbbing heartbeat,
I looked up in a haze,
And saw my mom that first moment,
Her eyes sparkling with love and grace.
As the years went by,
She taught me how to pray,
A gift often needed,
And I still use today.
My mom is a mom of loyalty,
Of honesty in her heart,
A very beautiful lady,
And even very smart.
She helps me in times of need,
Comforts me when I need held,
Looks at me with pride and joy,
Even when I have failed.
My mom is very strong,
Prays when we’re in need,
She helps anyone,
And plants a Godly seed.
Mama is so special,
She’s gentle like a dove,
The very perfect mom,
As I look at her with love.
I love you so much and I hope you are blessed tremendously on this Mothers’ Day!! ~See-Tee
| An Old Friend |
Out of your 19 and a half years were there ever times in your life when you felt like the tables had turned and you were the one who everyone was looking at just waiting for you to mess up? Did you feel like your family had turned and walked away from you? Didn't you just ever want to cry during all your years of growing up?
Some times we kids turned and walked away...but our family never did. They have always been there loving and waiting. We might have caused disappointment at times but the love never stopped and never will.
| Mama |
Buddy, I'll always remember the time that I told you good night "Butter" I love you and you surprised me by saying night "Syrup" I love you too. After that every night that's what we would say to each other. It's such a special memory for me. That's why I made this graphic, as silly as it may seem to many...
You'll always be my "Butter"...I'll always be your "Syrup"!
Love, Mama
| See-Tee |
| Mama |
Buddy tonight made 6 years ago that you Graduated from High School. You were suppose to have your whole life ahead of you. Never for a minute did we think it would only be a year and a half. Oh how I wish it could have been so much longer.
Love, Mama
| Mama |
Look Buddy, aren't we proud of your little brother!?!
| Mama |
Look what Sarah got Buddy! Aren't you proud of her? I know we sure are!
| Mama |
Happy Birthday B.J. I love you so much. I'm so thankful that I was blessed with you. You will always be my Best Buddy in the Whole Wide World. I wanted to tell you what all we did for your birthday today even though my heart tells me you already know.
Right before we left to go to the Bend Sis. Mullins had flowers delivered to us in memory of you and with them was this little "Butter" boy. It's a little guy that is used to put a stick of butter in to butter your corn on the cob. It was great! Not only did I call you Butter but you loved to eat butter didn't you? I can't even begin to say how many times you would just eat mouthfuls of butter. Yuck! So that little Butter boy was perfect. :)
As we were driving out to the river I couldn't help but find peace in the beauty of the outdoors and realized more than ever why you loved going camping out there. When we first got there Sarah found an I love you penny and then later found another one. She was sorry (Mama) didn't find one but I was glad she did because it's been hard for her lately and I think she must have needed that sign from you more than I did. Johnathan got to fish where you use to fish and even used used your little fishing pole. We enjoyed just seeing the beauty of the mountains and talking about the times you would climb them and scare me so bad. I was always so over pertective of you wasn't I Buddy? But... I made myself allow you to do the things that boys your age loved even though it about made me a nervous wreck. :) While we were there a gentle rain began to fall for just a little while and we knew you were there giving us our "Melodies from Heaven". After we ate we went down to the river and Sarah tossed the Dr Pepper bottle in and we watched it float away until it was out of site. My heart tells me you got our message. We spent much time just talking about the memories we have of times spent out there with you Buddy. When we were coming home late this evening just about the time we got back to town it began to sprinkle again and we knew you were letting us know you came back home with us. :) It was only enough for us to notice and then it stopped. So many times that happens and we always know it is a sign from you. Just as we were getting out of the pick up (looking like something the dog drug home) this vehicle drives up and this lady says...would you feel like having company for just a minute? I turned around and nearly fell over...it was our wonderful friend Marguerite Ward...Brandy's Mom. What a wonderful surprise! We had such a nice visit although it was much too short. She was down visiting family and stopped by to see us. I bet you and her Brandi had something to do with her showing up for your birthday huh?
Then we came in and Mama made your chocolate pudding pie and we all ate some for you. I'll always make it for you Buddy and hope that you somehow know I did.
Then I came in to the computer to tell you good night and Dianne had left a beautiful tribute for me here. I'm going to put a copy of it here for you ok.
So another birthday has came with you not here and we miss you more than ever Buddy. Know we love you and keep watching for us cause I promise we will be there just as soon as Jesus will let us.
Love you forever, Mama
Here's a copy of what we sent you...
Happy 24th Birthday B.J., we know you’re celebrating big in Heaven with your little brothers Wayne and Buck but we sure wish you were here with us. Always remember we love you Buddy and we’re so looking forward to the day we get to join you there. We miss you so much!
Love,
Mama, Daddy, Sarah, Johnathan, Kayla,
Amanda, Chris and Elijah
Anyone that may find this birthday wish in a bottle that we are sending to our son and brother…we would be honored if you would visit B.J.’s memory sites at…
http://bjoutlawii.memory-of.com
and/or
http://bobby-outlawii.last-memories.com
…and leave us a message.
We would love to find out where our message of love ended up at.
The Family of Bobby J. Outlaw II
| Mama |
Oh B.J. what we would give if we could only be with you on your birthday. You always remember how much we love you and know we will miss you more and more until we're all together again.
Love and big hugs, Mama
| Kayla Outlaw |
i miss the times we spent staying up late talking about what we would do the next day, whispering so that we wouldnt wake up mama and daddy.
i love you with all my heart and i always will no matter where i go or what i do.
i miss riding around with you in your car and just listining to kirk franklin with your sterio booming.
i wish you could be here to meet Sean and tell him all the things your supposed to tell guys just because your my brother.
i miss putting up with you getting on my nerves and me hollering at you because thats what sisters do
i wish i could hear you laugh one more time at something silly like the time mom was making you wear plastic glasses.
i miss those times that mom made us hug when we would get in fights and we would just stand there with our arms around each other gritting our teeth.
i miss going to the beach with you and riding bikes along the shore with friends.
i miss those years that we shared a room together and scattered blocks all over the floor.
i miss the times when we lived at the apartments and we would open your window and let the dogs jump up into your room.
i miss going on camping trips with you and watching you go hiking up that "mountain"
that's what it all really comes down to...
| Mama |
Dad tried so hard to give you a second chance at life B.J. You know just how much he loves you don't you? He would have given his very life to let you stay here with us. I know you're healthy in Heaven Buddy but we just miss you so much. I can't wait until we get to join you there.
Love, Mama
| Mama |
I wish I could give you a hug Buddy. I love you and miss you so much! Love, Mama
| Mama |
You loved your little Farm House didn't you Buddy? I wish we still had it but I remember you decided to finally get rid of it a few years before you left us. I still have the horse that went with it. I won't ever get rid of it.
Love, Mama
| Mama |
| Stephanie |
| Mama & Daddy |
Wayne & Buck,
Happy Birthday sweet boys!
What we would give if we could have kept you here with us. We love you both so much.
Love, Mama & Daddy
