Love, Mama

 
                 
        | Mama | Easter 2012 | April 8, 2012 | 

 
                | Mama | My Mind Drifted Back 4/4/2012 | April 5, 2012 | 
Tonight while in church my mind drifted back to the night Jesus called you home and the days leading up to your funeral. B.J. I prayed so hard and with all the faith I had in me that Jesus would heal you and allow you to stay here with us but for reasons I don't guess I'll ever understand He said no. But Buddy not once after you died did I pray that he would raise you back up and breath life back into you to live here. B.J. I just couldn't do that. As much as I wanted you here with me I couldn't ask Him to bring you back after you had already reached Heaven...I knew you wouldn't want to come back even though I knew you didn't want all of us to hurt either. B.J. that doesn't make me a bad Mama does it? I never wanted anything but the best for you. I always wanted you to have good health...I watched you struggle since the age of one with bad health...I knew when the Lord called your name you were completely healed...how could I even consider taking that away from you when all your life it's what I had asked for? It just didn't happen the way I had wanted it to. My heart tells me you understand what I'm saying and why I couldn't do it. You know I would have given my very life for you...for any one of you kids. I just miss you B.J. More than these simple words can say. And I love you so much.
Love, Mama
| Mama | Sarah's Senior Prom 3/31/2012 | April 5, 2012 | 
| Mama | Happy St Patrick's Day 3/17/2012 | March 17, 2012 | 
| B.J., Wayne and Buck | Happy 29th Birthday Amanda! 3/3/2012 | March 3, 2012 | 
| Mama | Happy Valentine's Day Wayne and Buck 2/14/12 | February 14, 2012 | 
| Cindy Outlaw | Sarah said yes...2/2/2012 | February 3, 2012 | 
| Cindy Outlaw | You're Uncles Again 1/30/2012 | February 3, 2012 | 
| Mama | Happy 26th Birthday Wayne and Buck | January 26, 2012 | 
 
                | B.J., Wayne and Buck | Happy Birthday Mama 1/19/2012 | January 19, 2012 | 
| Mama | Lala's getting married...12/31/11 | January 5, 2012 | 
| Mama | Happy New Year 2012 | January 1, 2012 | 
| Mama | Our Christmas Picture 2011 | December 29, 2011 | 
| Mama | Christmas 2011 | December 24, 2011 | 
| Mama | Your Candles Burn Bright | December 11, 2011 | 
| Cindy Outlaw | Rose from Mack and Debra 12/1/11 | December 6, 2011 | 
| Cindy Outlaw | Flowers from Brother and Sister Mullins 12/1/11 | December 6, 2011 | 
| 8 years too long 12/1/11 | 
 B.J. you've been gone 8 years today and Buddy that's too long. I miss you so much. Life goes on and takes me with it but I only miss you more and more with each day that passes. Please ask Jesus to help me get through this day...the memories of that last day weighs so heavy on my heart I want nothing more than to go to bed and sleep the day away but I can't.
                                B.J. you've been gone 8 years today and Buddy that's too long. I miss you so much. Life goes on and takes me with it but I only miss you more and more with each day that passes. Please ask Jesus to help me get through this day...the memories of that last day weighs so heavy on my heart I want nothing more than to go to bed and sleep the day away but I can't.| Johnathan's 10th Birthday 11/22/11 |