Bobby Jack Outlaw II

Something happened today that I thought it was sweet and wanted to share it. Today was such a tough day. Several times I wanted to post on my fb status asking for someone...to sing me a smile. (a quote off of the Jack Frost movie) I just needed a reason to smile and those words kept coming to me...but I never posted it.
Then tonight I was talking in the chat with a friend of mine name Jerry and he told me he "made good with a song today". Well I didn't have a clue what he was talking about. Then he told me it had to do with a song about Texas and asked if I knew any songs that mention Texas? I said the only one that comes to mind is The Yellow Rose of Texas. He told me that's it. He and his wife Char are working on their children's memory garden and they planted a yellow rose bush in it. I asked what that had to do with me and he said...because you're my friend and you're from Texas. It was in honor of our friendship. Aww it made me cry but it touched my heart.
Now hours later I remember what I had wanted today...for someone to sing me a smile. Do you see the connection? The song...the rose...a great friendship...made my heart smile.♥
Wasn't that the sweetest thing? Jesus has blessed me with such a wonderful friend.
Love, Mama

Happy 4th of July B.J., Wayne and Buck. Oh how I wish you were here!
Love, Mama

I wanted to come here and share something that happened today. You know Johnathan has been sick...so I took him to the doctor today. As much as I don't like him to be sick I can't help but see the Lord's hand in it for the good. B.J. you know Dr Morris is a good Godly man. One our family has grown to love over the years. He's done wonderful on helping us take care of Johnathan's medical needs when he was so sick as a baby. And over the years since you left he's been there for us in a way many in the medical field would not have done. He's prayed for us and given out so many much needed hugs over the years. He's such a very kind and compassionate young man that we're blessed to have in our lives. Now for what happened...
When he came into the exam room today right from the start he told us he had had a tough week but that he had just gotten some good news and to excuse him if he cried because he just couldn't hold back. We just let him talk. He said his young sister-in-law (age 28) had just this week been diagnosed with leukemia. She had not been sick but had just recently started feeling tired all the time. And then on Monday had started hemorrhaging and they almost lost her. Thankfully right now she is stable and is beginning chemo today. Anyway just before he came in to see us he found out she was going to get married. She had a big wedding planned for Sept. but her fiance didn't want to wait. He wanted to be her husband and take care of her in all the ways a husband can so they were getting married today...this morning...with her in the hospital. Dr Morris told me he was so torn between being so sad that she is sick and so happy for them getting married. Oh it broke my heart to see this young man (I say young man because he's only in his late 30's) sit there with Johnathan and I and just pour is heart out with tears falling. I am sure he would not have done that with just any of his patients. That is why I said earlier I could see the Lord's hands in it for the good. I honestly believe he wanted us there at that time and for that reason. When we were ready to leave I told him come here and gave him a big hug and reassured him we would keep his sister-in-law in prayer (her name is Sarah) and he just hugged me big and cried. Then Johnathan latched on to him with a big hug. Afterwords he told us thank you that he had needed us and he felt better. Isn't the Lord so good? Please ask Jesus to touch Sarah and heal her. She's got a long hard road ahead of her.
And as for Johnathan. Ends up he has strep throat but he got med. for it and I know he's going to be fine.
Love Mama 

Happy Father's Day Dad, we love you!
Love, B.J., Wayne and Buck

How loved and missed your Grandma is. But I know you boys are enjoying having her there with you. Let her know we love her and miss her always...just as we love and miss you.

Hey boys look how well your little brother Johnathan did in school this year.

Bluebonnet Award * Accelerated Reader * Recycling Star * UIL Reading * Book It *... Study Island Reading * Math Facts in a Flash * A/B Honor Roll * Commended Performance on Math and Reading TAKS Tests

Sarah also passed all her TAKS test and got Commended Performance on her Math one. I know yall are so proud of them both.

Happy 27th Birthday B.J., I love you so much! Oh how I wish I could spend it with you. I miss you so much. Please stay close to us today and let us feel you near. I made three chocolate pudding pies for your birthday, I wish you could be here to eat them with us. I hope you get one in Heaven. Please remember Mama loves you and I always will. I miss you more with each day that passes. I can't wait to see you again. I hope you like the balloons we sent. Hug your little brothers for me and tell them I love them too.

Forever loving and missing my 3 boys...
B.J., Wayne and Buck
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Hi sweet Wayne and Buck, I love you both so much. Oh how I wish I could see you. I miss you all the time. Someday my sweet boys we'll be together and nothing will ever take you away from me again. I hope you like your balloons. We thought you would like the Happy Birthday ones too since it's your brothers birthday. I know you both are helping him celebrate big in Heaven. Oh how I wish I could too. Give B.J. a big hug for me and wish him Happy Birthday for me and tell him I love him too.

Forever loving and missing my 3 boys...
B.J., Wayne and Buck
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Happy Birthday my Butter boy oh how I love and miss you. This isn't right...you should still be here with me. Love Mama

Happy Mother's Day Mama, we love you!
Love, B.J., Wayne & Buck

It has been 8 years since you had your kidney transplant. It was suppose to help us keep you here with us. You didn't get to stay long enough. I love you and miss you so much.
Love, Mama

Wishing you all were here. happy Easter boys. I love you.
Love, Mama

Johnathan had his first ballgame today. He had fun and looked too cute in his new Goldthwaite Eagles uniform. Oh how I wish you were here but I know you must be watching from Heaven. He got #1 for his number.
Love, Mama

B.J. next month will be 8 years since you had your kidney transplant and no longer did dialysis. Today I saw a BAXTER truck  for the fist time since then and had no idea it would still have the effect it had on me. I guess some things will never change. I miss you so much Buddy.
Love, Mama

Dedicated to B.J.     For those who don't know B.J. he was a person who loved God. He was the nicest brother and friend ever. He was sick throughout his life and died. Even if B.J. has passed his love will live on. We miss him, he is in our heart. We all loved him and still do.     People say after 7 years of grief we should get over it sooner or later but we don't. Grief is something that will stay forever. He was a kid that had a heart for Jesus. He is in Heaven now.     I never got to know him as much as I would have liked to, like everybody else did. Bit I still love him from the video's and stories. Someday we will get to see him in Heaven.   I wish I could have got to know him more as I would want to meet him. You can never be too far apart from each other.   I love you B.J.     Written by your little brother Johnathan

Today was Sarah's Prom.

Yesterday your little brother had his first baseball practice...and he did good. Oh how I wish you could be here to watch him but I'm sure you're watching from Heaven. He did great hitting the ball...sure proud of that little guy. He's on the team called the Goldthwaite Eagles...imagine that.
Love, Mama

Wishing our big sister Amanda a wonderful birthday today. We love you Manda!
Love, B.J., Wayne and Buck

Aww tonight something so special happened. Johnathan and I were talking and he told me he wanted to get his ears pierced and I said no. So he tells me when he is grown he is going to. Well I know I need to pick my battles with that little brother of yours so I just said that's fine...if you want to disappoint Jesus just go right ahead and then I dropped it. I figured I had plenty of time to pray the Lord would change his mind. And some things just aren't worth fighting with a 9 year old over. So I go about my business of cleaning house and I heart music start playing in the living room. Johnathan is watching/listening to a tape called Worship Point and the song that's playing is "Hunger for You". The main chorus goes like this... Lord, I hunger for you; O Father, draw me close to you. Let me feel the beating of your heart. And now, more than anything, I need more of you and less of me; Fill me up till I’m consumed by you. I walk into the living room and he's down on his knees at the coffee table praying. I leave him there and go on doing what I'm doing. In a little while I come back through and he's sitting on the couch wipeing tears from his face and I asked him what he was praying for. You know...so I could help him pray if he wanted me to. He said Mama I was just asking Jesus to help me do what is right. I'm not going to do what I said I was when I'm grown cause I don't want to make Jesus unhappy. Talk about a Mama's heart swelling with pride (the good kind). I told him Jesus is so proud of you and so am I. And then we talked about what we had earlier and all is well. I pray he will always have a tender heart for the Lord and seek to please him in all he does.